～La lumière du Soleil～芯晴

under attack

妖容 — Tue, 09 Dec 2008 12:08:00 GMT

I'm suffering from a feeling called frustration.

依赖型人格障碍是日常生活中较常见的人格障碍，美国《精神障碍的诊断与统计手册》(DSM-VI)中将依赖型人格的特征定义为：

　　1.在没有从他人处得到大量的建议和保证之前，对日常事物不能作出决策。

　　2.无助感，让别人为自己作大多数的重要决定，如在何处生活，该选择什么职业等。

　　3.被遗弃感。明知他人错了，也随声附和，因这害怕被别人遗弃。

　　4.无独立性，很难单独展开计划或做事。

　　5.过度容忍，为讨好他人甘愿做低下的或自己不愿做的事。

　　6.独处时有不适和无助感，或竭尽全力以逃避孤独。

　　7.当亲密的关系中止时感到无助或崩溃。

　　8.经常被遭人遗弃的念头所折磨。

　　9.很容易因未得到赞许或遭到批评而受到伤害。

　　只要满足上述特征中的五项，即可诊断为依赖型人格。

　　依赖型人格对亲近与归属有过分的渴求，这种渴求是强迫的、盲目的、非理性的，与真实的感情无关。依赖型人格的人宁愿放弃自己的个人趣味、人生观，只要他能找到一座靠山，时刻得到别人对他的温情就心满意足了。依赖型人格的这种处世方式使得他越来越懒情、脆弱，缺乏自主性和创造性。由于处处委屈求全，依赖型人格障碍患者会产生越来越多的压抑感。这种压抑感阻止着自己干点什么或有什么个人爱好。

……我需要去看医生……或者等伤口好了保持每天1小时的运动。

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妖容 — Tue, 09 Dec 2008 09:49:00 GMT

据悉，擎天柱（Optimus）、大黄蜂（Bumblebee）、红蜘蛛（Starscream）、铁皮（Ironhide）的造型在第二部中不会变动。

——我哭了。

粉丝问：Don, I'll only pester you with one ROTF question:
When are we going to start seeing trailers/posters/marketing in general for the film? Do you know?
我只是想问你一个《变形金刚2》的问题：大约什么时候我们将开始看到预告片/海报宣传为这部电影？你知道吗？

制片人答：we're kind of trying to follow the PIRATES OF CARIBBEAN model, that is, no publicity for as long as possible, since the sequel will have enormous attention no matter what we do
我们试着遵循《加勒比海盗》的模式，那就是只要可以，就不会作任何宣传，因为这部续集无论我们做什么，都会得到广泛的关注的。

——爆渣的经济危机TT……

讨厌

妖容 — Fri, 05 Dec 2008 15:29:00 GMT

我讨厌“翻译机”。http://news.xinhuanet.com/newscenter/2003-10/29/content_1149682.htm这篇基本比较说明问题。我倒不是想说不是说这东西不好学或者学不好，只是它作为一种……技能，实际上和吃饭说话上厕所没什么两样、多用就掌握了的东西，却弄得举国上下鸡犬不宁，更有不少以且仅能以此吃饭的人（这个打击面不包括同声译和做文学翻译的），实在是……

我是相当痛恨在没有专业知识的情况下给相关文件做翻译的人的。而且很不客气的说，就某些专攻英语，一辈子只能做这一行的翻译的现状来看，实在不能不让人怀疑其智商是否超过小布什……你几乎和他没法沟通——相应的我也很难相信他怎么能做得好成为那个沟通原文作者和译文读者之间桥梁的角色……

我国盲目的英语学习热除了造就出一批干瘪和僵化到仅能以此养家糊口的教师、半吊子翻译和看准了时机打算借此捞一笔的投机商，还有什么？这里面有百分之几的人是真正因为“需要用”而才试图去掌握这门技能？天晓得，我只知道这个现象给一众除了说鬼子话别的什么都不会做的人提供了就业机会而已。就像昨天晚上CCAV新闻台讨论的那个话题一样——高中文理需要分科么——英语、语文、数学，无论分科与否，说到底这三门大家都得学。除去那百分之零点几的天生在某一方面——各个方面，文学也好艺术也好体育、自然科学逻辑学等等总之某方面——特别有talent的人应该也确实需要任其自由发展之外，属于正态分布那个橄榄形点阵中间那百分之七、八十的人，这三门基础课，任何一门都没有理由不及格。

所以那些个连false和not given都分不清的逻辑白痴和什么阅读只能卡在7分上的翻译硕士，出门拐弯直奔图书馆把高数上下两册借来好好温习一遍吧。7分往上的分数段考察的已经不再是单一的语言和词汇量……而是逻辑和心理素质了。（而我现在还卡在词汇量上= =）

大陶瓷国的河蟹式教育问题不是出在太应试，而是缺乏足够的时间让被填压的学生把填料消化并且吸收掉。直到毕业我才明白，实际上理科只是在培养一种思维方式，文科亦然。咱这个螃蟹式教育的目的总的来说是好的……只不过方式确实欠佳，而呃就已。

补习班最大的好处是助长毒舌气焰，老师对着孩子们，或者年轻人在一起总是或多或少有点口无遮拦，换句话说，从中国人的传统意义上来讲，我们都不怎么会做人。

I have a sore throat & my heel was badly wounded last night!!!

妖容 — Thu, 04 Dec 2008 19:37:00 GMT

It's unwise to touch any knives or sharps when I'm sleepy= =! I hurt myself last night, there was a freaking projecting callus on my right heel and I wanted to get rid of it.At that time a razor broke into my sight, orz, it's unbilievable I really used A RAZOR to cut the callus.And then~definitely~the callus was been cut down as well as a poor piece of skin.

I bleed a lot, lamimg a whole day,and suffering pain...

THAT IS TOOOOOOOOOOOO HURTS!!!!!!!!!!!!

People say that 'When it rains, it pours'. And now I've found I caught a cold! My throat sore... What a day!!!!!orz....today a cold front hit QD.The low temperature will be -7℃ tomorrow. = =I DO decide to STAY AT HOME!!!

ADD: kinds of PAIN~

ache 连续的或长久的钝痛
pain 因疾病、事故等引起的肉体上的疼痛
smart 人或身体部位感到剧痛或难受
hurt 因外部原因而疼痛
sore 身体部位疼痛，身体或精神上的痛
anguish 身、心的极度痛苦
suffer 经受痛苦

这篇我需要全文转载……甚至打大一点贴在电脑后面的墙上

妖容 — Tue, 02 Dec 2008 22:04:00 GMT

'You've got to find what you love,' Jobs says
This is the text of the Commencement address by Steve Jobs, CEO of Apple Computer and of Pixar Animation Studios, delivered on June 12, 2005.

I am honored to be with you today at your commencement from one of the finest universities in the world. I never graduated from college. Truth be told, this is the closest I've ever gotten to a college graduation. Today I want to tell you three stories from my life. That's it. No big deal. Just three stories.

The first story is about connecting the dots.

I dropped out of Reed College after the first 6 months, but then stayed around as a drop-in for another 18 months or so before I really quit. So why did I drop out?

It started before I was born. My biological mother was a young, unwed college graduate student, and she decided to put me up for adoption. She felt very strongly that I should be adopted by college graduates, so everything was all set for me to be adopted at birth by a lawyer and his wife. Except that when I popped out they decided at the last minute that they really wanted a girl. So my parents, who were on a waiting list, got a call in the middle of the night asking: "We have an unexpected baby boy; do you want him?" They said: "Of course." My biological mother later found out that my mother had never graduated from college and that my father had never graduated from high school. She refused to sign the final adoption papers. She only relented a few months later when my parents promised that I would someday go to college.

And 17 years later I did go to college. But I naively chose a college that was almost as expensive as Stanford, and all of my working-class parents' savings were being spent on my college tuition. After six months, I couldn't see the value in it. I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life and no idea how college was going to help me figure it out. And here I was spending all of the money my parents had saved their entire life. So I decided to drop out and trust that it would all work out OK. It was pretty scary at the time, but looking back it was one of the best decisions I ever made. The minute I dropped out I could stop taking the required classes that didn't interest me, and begin dropping in on the ones that looked interesting.

It wasn't all romantic. I didn't have a dorm room, so I slept on the floor in friends' rooms, I returned coke bottles for the 5¢ deposits to buy food with, and I would walk the 7 miles across town every Sunday night to get one good meal a week at the Hare Krishna temple. I loved it. And much of what I stumbled into by following my curiosity and intuition turned out to be priceless later on. Let me give you one example:

Reed College at that time offered perhaps the best calligraphy instruction in the country. Throughout the campus every poster, every label on every drawer, was beautifully hand calligraphed. Because I had dropped out and didn't have to take the normal classes, I decided to take a calligraphy class to learn how to do this. I learned about serif and san serif typefaces, about varying the amount of space between different letter combinations, about what makes great typography great. It was beautiful, historical, artistically subtle in a way that science can't capture, and I found it fascinating.

None of this had even a hope of any practical application in my life. But ten years later, when we were designing the first Macintosh computer, it all came back to me. And we designed it all into the Mac. It was the first computer with beautiful typography. If I had never dropped in on that single course in college, the Mac would have never had multiple typefaces or proportionally spaced fonts. And since Windows just copied the Mac, its likely that no personal computer would have them. If I had never dropped out, I would have never dropped in on this calligraphy class, and personal computers might not have the wonderful typography that they do. Of course it was impossible to connect the dots looking forward when I was in college. But it was very, very clear looking backwards ten years later.

Again, you can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.

My second story is about love and loss.

I was lucky — I found what I loved to do early in life. Woz and I started Apple in my parents garage when I was 20. We worked hard, and in 10 years Apple had grown from just the two of us in a garage into a $2 billion company with over 4000 employees. We had just released our finest creation — the Macintosh — a year earlier, and I had just turned 30. And then I got fired. How can you get fired from a company you started? Well, as Apple grew we hired someone who I thought was very talented to run the company with me, and for the first year or so things went well. But then our visions of the future began to diverge and eventually we had a falling out. When we did, our Board of Directors sided with him. So at 30 I was out. And very publicly out. What had been the focus of my entire adult life was gone, and it was devastating.

I really didn't know what to do for a few months. I felt that I had let the previous generation of entrepreneurs down - that I had dropped the baton as it was being passed to me. I met with David Packard and Bob Noyce and tried to apologize for screwing up so badly. I was a very public failure, and I even thought about running away from the valley. But something slowly began to dawn on me — I still loved what I did. The turn of events at Apple had not changed that one bit. I had been rejected, but I was still in love. And so I decided to start over.

I didn't see it then, but it turned out that getting fired from Apple was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. The heaviness of being successful was replaced by the lightness of being a beginner again, less sure about everything. It freed me to enter one of the most creative periods of my life.

During the next five years, I started a company named NeXT, another company named Pixar, and fell in love with an amazing woman who would become my wife. Pixar went on to create the worlds first computer animated feature film, Toy Story, and is now the most successful animation studio in the world. In a remarkable turn of events, Apple bought NeXT, I returned to Apple, and the technology we developed at NeXT is at the heart of Apple's current renaissance. And Laurene and I have a wonderful family together.

I'm pretty sure none of this would have happened if I hadn't been fired from Apple. It was awful tasting medicine, but I guess the patient needed it. Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith. I'm convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You've got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don't settle.

My third story is about death.

When I was 17, I read a quote that went something like: "If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you'll most certainly be right." It made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: "If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?" And whenever the answer has been "No" for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.

Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important tool I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything — all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure - these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.

About a year ago I was diagnosed with cancer. I had a scan at 7:30 in the morning, and it clearly showed a tumor on my pancreas. I didn't even know what a pancreas was. The doctors told me this was almost certainly a type of cancer that is incurable, and that I should expect to live no longer than three to six months. My doctor advised me to go home and get my affairs in order, which is doctor's code for prepare to die. It means to try to tell your kids everything you thought you'd have the next 10 years to tell them in just a few months. It means to make sure everything is buttoned up so that it will be as easy as possible for your family. It means to say your goodbyes.

I lived with that diagnosis all day. Later that evening I had a biopsy, where they stuck an endoscope down my throat, through my stomach and into my intestines, put a needle into my pancreas and got a few cells from the tumor. I was sedated, but my wife, who was there, told me that when they viewed the cells under a microscope the doctors started crying because it turned out to be a very rare form of pancreatic cancer that is curable with surgery. I had the surgery and I'm fine now.

This was the closest I've been to facing death, and I hope its the closest I get for a few more decades. Having lived through it, I can now say this to you with a bit more certainty than when death was a useful but purely intellectual concept:

No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don't want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life's change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.

Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

When I was young, there was an amazing publication called The Whole Earth Catalog, which was one of the bibles of my generation. It was created by a fellow named Stewart Brand not far from here in Menlo Park, and he brought it to life with his poetic touch. This was in the late 1960's, before personal computers and desktop publishing, so it was all made with typewriters, scissors, and polaroid cameras. It was sort of like Google in paperback form, 35 years before Google came along: it was idealistic, and overflowing with neat tools and great notions.

Stewart and his team put out several issues of The Whole Earth Catalog, and then when it had run its course, they put out a final issue. It was the mid-1970s, and I was your age. On the back cover of their final issue was a photograph of an early morning country road, the kind you might find yourself hitchhiking on if you were so adventurous. Beneath it were the words: "Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish." It was their farewell message as they signed off. Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish. And I have always wished that for myself. And now, as you graduate to begin anew, I wish that for you.

Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.

Thank you all very much.

当你只有一天可以活的时候你会做什么……我真恨中国人的中庸之道，有时候我们需要的并不是能够活的更长久或者更舒适，我们更多的需要一种信念，和一种能够让一头驴子只朝一个方向跑的东西。可各种各样的妥协、皆大欢喜充斥着我们的生活——最近我身边的每一张嘴都在重复抱怨-妥协的模式——是啊，没错，这就是东方人的生活方式，我好想大声喊出来我之所以肯去读补习班、去考试完全不是为了满足某些人迫切希望我出国念书的愿望——我只是为了让wiki和google...这个cyberspace在我手里发挥他们最大的利用价值。

这些话……直到一直作为我精神上最后的那一根救命稻草的那个家伙也没能摆脱这个怪圈为止，我都没仔细想过……可是现在真的是我认识的所·有人，全都赌上自己的那点有限的时间去博取除了自己的什么其他人高兴的状况了。这种时候，你不能不开始偏激的认为也许像美国大小孩那种傻了吧唧的思维方式和难以理解的不计后果说不定是件好事。pixar和apple computer属于（或者说属于过）同一个人，而这家伙连大学都没有毕业。虽然我们都很清楚的知道像这些经典案例绝大多数都是不可复制的，但是……难道没人思考过为什么温州或者义乌、东莞或者深圳之流产不出一个半个Jobs来？

没错……我们只有只知道从山寨起家的农民企业家。

而恰恰是这帮“即使输也输不到哪去大不了回家种地”的人，成就了今天我们所见的长三角和珠三角两个经济中心。

而问题就出在，他们有的是胆量，缺乏的是胆识。不过这样也好，我们这群看起来似乎很有良心很理智受过程度以上教育的人，连胆量都没有。

有时候我真希望自己是个农民。

要是你不会做菜那只能说明你吃的还不够多。

妖容 — Tue, 02 Dec 2008 19:30:00 GMT

绝对是这个道理。最近家里太干，鼻子里头破了……真讨厌。人造的22度的室温是有代价的= =。

吃了一个多星期的外食和老人家的饭，5个月的老爸口味和自己那不成熟的手艺……今天放学之后难得勤快下，在厨房奋斗了1小时之后突然觉得自己煮的很有妈妈的味道。

叼着筷子泪流满面（伪）。

通常一个人在家的时候都很懒，上周末就煮了一大锅咖喱结果吃了两天= =（3顿，它居然没坏掉）。我不算对吃很讲究的……舌头太刁了，有时候不得不妥协，时间一长也就成了习惯。主要是最近很长一段时间都提不起吃的兴趣来，太久没什么东西能刺激到味蕾是件糟糕的事，不过想要活着并且活下去至少还得保证每天至少两顿，又没有时间整天泡在厨房里……再说我恨刷碗。

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妖容 — Mon, 01 Dec 2008 17:39:00 GMT

终于买到了和触摸环一样颜色的耳机套我太高兴了。Apple的质量啊……唉。或者说人体的油性分泌物对脂溶性物质确实有铁杵成针一般的腐蚀作用——林檎啊林檎，原来你们从很早就喜欢牺牲实用性来迁就美观。

mac book air连网线插口都是USB的，这就叫走火入魔~？

PS：CCTV9的播音员的口音被口语老师说成one piece of shoot（他老人家用词显然更直接一点= =）……原来几个月前的那一次真的不是我听力出了问题。

PPS：http://www.yeeyan.com/超好的地方=v=

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妖容 — Tue, 25 Nov 2008 18:23:00 GMT

汪。

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妖容 — Mon, 24 Nov 2008 20:27:00 GMT

浑身疼、浑身疼、浑身疼。

稍微有点理解了豆芽的心情。

myspace那种东东对于交流障碍的人来说依然是痛苦的，我真的很讨厌就好像那种把自己放出来展览给人看的感觉。因为在对方并不知情的情况下我已经不幸通过普通的搜索渠道参观过N个人的“可以用来推销”的个人信息了。前些日子了解到了些搜索引擎的工作原理，原来百度的功能是那么的……流氓。还是那句老话，网络拉进了人与人的距离，可是豪猪终究是带刺的。

我有点害怕，我们要的到底是什么？

PS：真正累的要死的时候是哼不出来的，还是keep silence比较好。

关于最近收到的各种香水……

妖容 — Sun, 23 Nov 2008 12:22:00 GMT

……昨天又收到一瓶100多ml的5th avenue……这两年收到的大瓶香水加起来大概得有1斤了= =，这玩意有保质期不用实在是浪费，之前偶尔用用EA的绿茶，最后剩小半瓶并呈现出严重的氧化迹象干脆当空气清新剂喷。总结起来我还是最喜欢Indefinie Girl's那支，尽管味道张扬的，除了敢给柜子去味用就从来没喷过……不过反正我本人也够张扬了，而且这个味道实在是比较适于调节心情，最近郁闷到想到在房上拉小绳以寻求解脱了都，得考虑弄个充满春天气息的气味来助长一点loli心。这个瓶装的设计的也很有意思，香水里面加了（不会喷出来的）闪粉，闲着没事就摇瓶子玩。

不幸的是摇瓶子太多也开始氧化了TT

5th avenue很喜欢那个前调，可两秒钟内就跑光，泪奔。而且它黄色的看不出来氧化= =。

48小时内哭了5场……我我需要治愈……

写文就是要失控……

妖容 — Sun, 23 Nov 2008 11:12:00 GMT

我拟人了……掩面。

=======================掩面分隔线====================

当他推开门的时候，看到的是那蓝色的家伙正把什么东西望衣袋里塞。

“省省吧别藏了我看见了，说你的飞行速度能超过3马赫，不是说动作速度”
TC倏的转过身去，一脸愠色的把塞了一半的手帕拽出来丢地下
“怎么了？”

“不用你管”
“泪痕很明显，下次记得听见有人进来先擦干净，比别别扭扭的藏东西要容易蒙混过去”
“是自然干的，我没注意”
“别告诉我那是因为没关机舱盖吹得迎风流泪”
“……”
“还不打算说？”
“……呛的”
闹翻天愣了一下，不是因为这个有点离谱的回答，而是这个回答太有创意，突然的让人不知道怎么马上调侃回去
“？”
于是他准备认真一点
“被血味，呛的”

“………………orz”又是这个老生常谈的……话题，紫色的那只心想，自打他俩认识开始某人就曾经多少次为了“杀人”这一个在他看来简单的不能再简单的事情而产生各种他所不能理解也没法对付的心理问题。他曾经无数次的想过，霸天虎也许实在有必要为了这个在战场上都能以“我想”和“我认为”开头才能好好说话的神经纤细的麻烦精配备一个或者不止一个心理医生——惊天雷不是没有能力或者胆怯，只是他实在、实在、实在太喜欢不合时宜的思考了。

“普神在上，你这次又是什么问题……”最后他还是鼓足勇气决定再问一次
“……别问了，我们都知道你不想听”
“……我已经看见了，你好歹满足下同僚的好奇心，不然我会失眠”
换作其他人听到他这句话八成只能有反效果，可是TC清楚，这种语气是某个不善于表达同情心和同僚爱的家伙最善意的表达方式。
“……你真的觉得整天这样……有意思？”
“……哈？”
“杀人、当个霸天虎，我是说……”惊天雷比划着试图找到合适的词“……尽管我们生来就应该是霸天虎……”他模棱两可的摆弄着那枚紫色徽章，看起来就像个刚拿了考试不及格的孩子“我是说——你知道即使是军品……性格上也总有些差别”
“总之又是不习惯对吧= =”闹翻天抱着双臂把自己扔进沙发里“你到底什么时候才能解决这个问题？该死的真应该让钩子给你打一针”他夸张的比划着同时对打针这个词不自觉的露出一点反感的神色“让你什么都忘了，那样肯定比现在好用得多”
“……比起屠城我更乐于……做点研究什么的……或者策略上的事情……总之就算霸天虎缺能量，像饿狼一样全体出动去围攻也实在太难看了，而且很明显的，群殴是效率最低下的一种战术”
“……”这下轮到闹翻天挑高一边眉毛，他感觉到大脑里正在蔓延一种叫做囧的情绪，排除战术这种事情本来就不是他擅长思考的范围里的（其实没有什么事情是他真正擅长思考的），TC刚才的那句不坦白的借口已经足够让今晚的谈话从“失眠”向“催眠”方向发展，于是闹闹开始认真思考起到底怎么才能让眼前这个诺贝尔思考奖（如果有的话）获得者尽量在他睡着之前直白的把问题重点说出来。

“好吧好吧……你的意思是你想……把尖叫鬼从空军指挥官的位置上biu下来……对么？”最后他选了这么个蹩脚的问题来继续谈话
“= =”
“……我倒是没什么意见啦……毕竟谁发号施令都一样，我们组织纪律涣散是出了名的……不过你要真想干我可以帮忙~最近都没什么娱乐”
这回轮到惊天雷抱住头，把额头埋在臂弯里……其实可能的话他还想再埋深一点直接撞进桌子里算了，那样的话无论是一直令他烦恼的滥杀无辜、还是更加令他烦恼的闹翻天都可以在一声闷响当中暂时消失一段时间……
“——我是说！我他妈过够了整天轰炸投弹再轰炸的日子了！”这次惊天雷似乎选择了在沉默中爆发“军品生来就是杀戮、破坏、可是我们不是绞肉机不是么！这样下去什么时候才是个头！简直和只剩本能的怪物没两样！”
“……”
“目的性！！这场战争存在的目的性到底在哪里！”
他跌坐回椅子里，再次用手捂住脸“……我们存在的目的性又在哪里……”

闹翻天呆呆的望着眼前那个歇斯底里的同僚，这么麻烦的问题他从没想过，也自然没试图去想，这就是思维简单的好处——照着命令去做，连他也不知道自己对威震天那份个人崇拜似的忠诚是哪里来的。在他看来，似乎只有红蜘蛛那样的性格才算是一个真正合格的霸天虎——除了军品与生俱来的那份破坏欲，还有对自己的、也仅仅是对自己的绝对忠诚……这点他做不到，也许让他那样他做就会把事情搞糟……总之他没深入的去总结这个问题的答案，懒得、也不想。

“于是你他渣的到底在发什么火？”
“我不想这么打仗！至少、不是滥杀无辜！”
“你是根本就不想打仗吧！”
“……”即使闹翻天不擅长思考，他对某些问题重点的直觉还是很出类拔萃的
“…………你说……为什么……军品就一定要靠打架过活？”
“……我们天生如此你想那么多干什么”
“……任何事情都有例外”
“TC我就不明白了……你又不是没有能力，现在这样，你看，我们不是也过的很好？要是你不想那么多没用的……”
“为什么……霸天虎……就一定得作为杀人机器……只是因为我们有能力……”

闹翻天愣住了。这个问题他不单想不出回答，甚至连谁能回答似乎也不是那么容易能想象的到的。这种事情对于他们来说就好像为什么那两颗卫星总是按照固定的轨道环绕赛博坦……司空见惯又稀松平常……每一个seeker在军校上的第一课，都是如果有能力挣脱引力的束缚就应该飞的更高更快更远，也从来没人对此提出异议……无论是那种高度和速度的飞行，会对自己本身造成什么损害……

“……如果你这种人多一点……我们大概就不会打仗了8…………”
最后，他突然蹦出这么一句话
“……那样赛博坦就不会变成这个样子了……我们也不用这么……跑这么远……”
“背井离乡”
“对……是这个词……”

“呼……………………”
惊天雷疲惫的站起身来，走过去陷进闹闹身边的沙发里，这个问题永远都没有答案，基本上这是肯定的，而这场傻乎乎的仗显然还要继续打下去，在战争开始了很多年以后，他们每个人都学会了该如何用使自己受到最小损害的方式来使痛苦变得麻木甚至将它视为一种同样傻乎乎的娱乐方式，消极怠工不是办法，也许积极一点也能达到同样的效果。但是即使是这样，该累的时候总会累，该问的问题也还是会问……只是差别在于每次的借口和开场白不同，而已，运气好的话也许收场也有些许小的惊喜……

“闹闹……”TC锤着身边那个被传染了某种情绪的人“下次被打中，记得第一时间把我也撞下去……也许你说得对……最近娱乐太少了……”

半年前我就想说这句话

妖容 — Wed, 19 Nov 2008 19:57:00 GMT

设计不是艺术
学设计第一要认识到的就是设计不是艺术。设计是沟通，是传达，而艺术是表现，是创作。这并不是说设计里没有表现的成份，更不是说艺术是不在乎沟通的。但是两者在这两项上的侧重是有很大差别的。设计是不能凭感觉做的，要考虑各种因素，要寻找最隹的表达方法，要把自己的感觉翻译成大众能够理解的有效视觉语言。

……当时碍于某些原因没说出来而已。某些人最好别用所谓的艺术来侮辱设计，我们受不起。

憋着憋着……就high了

妖容 — Thu, 13 Nov 2008 20:18:00 GMT

= =历史经验告诉我们拍食物要用黄色灯光。（喂）

晚上烤了pizza，图如上，我没烤盘=3=，先用锡纸凑合下8，我得承认饼底失败了，这人四体不勤五谷不分的不知道发面加多少酵母，妈又远在千里之外。刚打电话得知只放了预定量的1/5……囧死。

不过还好留了个心眼，只做了3mm厚的薄底，虽然没按照脆饼底的要求来烤不过先用平底锅煎一下的结果尝起来还不至于那么糟糕~除去饼底的因素的话，味道可以说是不错了~pizza果然还是不难。

放了好~~~~~~多肉……维也纳香肠和培根，鸡肉、青椒和葡萄干本来打算加的可是没地方了（这样已经摞了好高），黄色的是菠萝~

最后……有谁听说过没有黄油用橄榄油代替的人么|||||。

呜！

妖容 — Tue, 11 Nov 2008 00:18:00 GMT

马达加斯加2上映……TT……等……现在唯一能做的就是等，TS版我已经不介意了，不过最好有高质量的偷录版……

派拉蒙信誓旦旦的放过话说11月TF2开始大规模宣传，就算订了新闻通知邮件也改不了天天刷官网的焦躁，这就是沉不住气。

和谐版的007字幕很喜感，建议大家都去看看。

问卷~

妖容 — Tue, 21 Oct 2008 00:09:00 GMT

1.愛吃嗎？還是認為吃只是為了要活下去？
有闲的时候爱吃，通常工作中会觉得吃饭是浪费时间
以前吃过某一家的现烤芝士蛋挞（对不起名字暂时保个小密），第一口咬下去的瞬间确实有点到了天堂的感觉而且当时我绝对不是饿着|||……远目所以吃还是很值得期待的一件事情……

2.早餐/午餐/晚餐通常是？
粥或者豆腐花、没有（！？）、炒两到三个菜、米饭、现榨的果汁、点心
……我知道这种习惯不好……= =

3.一天吃幾頓？（宵夜點心也包括的話）
一到两顿……算上夜宵两顿半

4.會自己下廚？還是是外食部的？
一半一半……赶工的时候懒得跑出去，等到快饿死了才出门或者做饭

5.會邊走邊吃？邊做事情邊吃？（例：邊看電視、看書、上網...etc）
泡芙或者章鱼丸之类的零食会边走边吃……
饭……自己在家的时候除了早饭都会对着电脑吃……除非晚饭东西太多端不过来或者饿扁了没力气端的就……

6.死都不吃的東西（必須是食物）
…………纳豆。尝过一次，实在咽不下去

7.你覺得很好吃但是身邊的人都覺得不好吃/沒什麼特別的東西？
榴莲……害死多少人了都……我甘之如饴~
其余的，按照我的味觉来说都是别人说好吃的我没感觉…

8.日常很規律的在食用的東西？（例：每天、每晚、每次上課前、每月...etc）
……水算么……囧……不喝不行啊
食物的话是水果……坚果当药吃每天几粒（最讨厌吃坚果），我有维生素B2吸收方面的问题

9.一直很想吃吃看但是卻沒機會的東西
小小。

……算了我在开玩笑……

10.覺得豪華的一頓料理不可或缺的是？
矜持。（喂）
是有人陪……尤其是有某人陪……远目

11.（可跳過）自己設計一套華麗的三餐（or其中一餐）。
……pass……这种东西自己设计的根本没有吃时候的惊喜= =

12.吃東西的怪癖？（例：什麼東西都要加美乃滋）
好像没有……有特长，面对某些人做的菜时会启动味觉失灵法

13. 最愛的點心/宵夜
苹果啊= =不然大半夜的不敢吃别的……
点心？那多了……和芝士有关的点心、糯糯的不太甜的东西、金枪鱼制品、蓝莓、鹅肝制品、小小……喂又来了，睡觉啃的算么。

14.一直很想去試試的餐廳
所有的michelin三星餐厅TvT！用一辈子时间不知道有没可能达成这个目标……
不过一想到那种地方实在有压力……

15.這些人感覺都很好吃的樣子...（口水）←這是點名
……………………大半夜的……嗯单独点……